August 5th, 2023

Welcome back since I missed a day, it has been busy! Childhood trauma will take a back burner today as this also supposed to be about my day to day life also. I swear in the blink of an eye the weekend is already nearing over. Off to the races right away yesterday after getting off of work. It was my dad's birthday, well my brother's dad but the one I claim as my own. A simple get together with a bonfire and good company just to sit around and talk shit with. However, one of our old "friends" was out there with her soon to be husband and it is just so hard to listen to her talk being she tried to ruin my relationship with my now husband even though she is how we met. That is a story for another time. Now talk about scary parent moments, my 15-year-old got his permit this week and he drove me to the next town over this morning to do out grocery shopping and pet food shopping. He did not do bad, but it is always hard to take that first step and actually put your life in their hands to teach them to become a good driver. It also happens to be all the kids' favorite weekend of the year, the county fair. I decided I really wanted to enjoy myself this year and actually bought myself a ride wrist band and rode with my kids. Let me tell you it is a good reminder of how actually old I am. I am already exhausted, and I can feel it in my legs and feet from walking around all afternoon. Cute story, I seen a family I have in my church class and their little girl is 3 and she was so excited to see us that she completely came running over and then wanted to ride the Feris wheel with me. I was so impressed with how well she did, she was absolutely amazed with being up so high and kept say " I can see everything". Do the things that are scary, don't make your decisions based on the people you think are judging you because at the end of the day your family is what matters, these memories are what matter. Let people talk, let them wish they had the courage to not care what others think of you and make those core memories with your babies even if they are teenagers.